“Party til you pass out, drink til’ you’re dead. Dance all night til you can’t feel your legs!”
This photo shoot location brought back a lot of my high school memories as I wondered around my friend’s high school and heard about all of his adventures and memories.
God did I hate everyone in high school! I am not exaggerating when I tell you I didn’t have any friends. I didn’t even fit in with the alternative or artsy kids in my school. I would only talk to my high school sweetheart now good friend cisco (Break the Stereotype) and my forever crazy friend Vania. It’s not that I hated everyone, I just had a strong dislike for immaturity. I was not a bad kid all the teachers loved me til this day I will always be a proud teacher’s pet.
I never went to homecoming or prom. I never joined any clubs or attended pep-rallies. I was that kid that had to wait for her parents to pick her up around 7pm each night. It was just me and cisco always. We were known as Bunny and Clyde around school because of how “intimidating” we were and because of all the fights we got into.
I was not a bully… but every time someone would say anything negative about me or used me as some form of joke to entertain those around I made it clear they should’ve kept my name out of their mouths. People assume that since you are quiet and keep to yourself you would be an easy target. My mom always told me to defend myself and never let anyone put me down and I sort of took that to the next level. I was always in ISS, detention, even juvi.
People never thought I would be somebody… I had so much going on in my personal life that people always knew my drama. People knew I went to juvi people knew of my family and relationship problems. I always tried to keep it low, but that intrigued people to want to know more about you. Cisco had a young brother who would tell his friends everything. It was like some Gossip Girl episode and we were the main characters. People would even make up rumors! I was always looked down and I was always on the outside. I was no longer an outsider by choice. My image was tarnished and people always expected the worst. Everybody knew me but nobody knew me.
By my senior year in high school all the boys and girls that started off bullying me kept o trying to be my friends. One girl actually apologized to me and said she would like to start over. A guy even bought me a gift and asked me to be my friend. Some would try to talk to me like nothing ever happened. I was even voted for most likely to be in the fashion industry ( I didn’t win) but who nominated me?!?!
I moved schools like a month before graduation. I met knew people and started over. I met people I had so much in common I was no longer thought to be weird, but embraced. Looking back I realized it was not me it was them. It was such a concentrated area of people that had a one track mentality.Now all those people from high school keep friend requesting me on Facebook and following me on social media because they want to know what I’m up to.When you shine a bit different people get intimidated and the only way they can feel safer is by putting you down.
What I am trying to say is this. If you are currently struggling in high school, college, even work. remember this. There are millions of people you have yet to meet. Million of places you have not seen. Where you are now is just a small part of a universe you have yet to explore. Do not let those around you take away the most valuable thing you have, and that is your life. Let them talk, let them gossip. Let them misunderstand you. No matter what they do or say don’t you dare doubt your worth or the beauty of your truth. Just keep shinning like you do. I believe in you.
“Football season is over” is the title of a BMTH song (Mayra, again?!) The song’s name comes from legendary gonzo journalist and Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas author Hunter S Thompson. It was actually the title of his 2005 suicide note. The song it self has nothing to do with the event.
Photo Credit to my best friend Patrick Marrero he actually does audio stuff! Photos Edited by me 🙂