Would it be too late to wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New year? I want to thank you all for staying put even though I left for 3 months and I would like to thank all those peeps who subscribed during my break even if I was not active. If you follow me on social media by now you would’ve seen I successfully ended college! Yes, I managed to graduate with a Bachelors of Science majoring in Fashion Retail Marketing.
Can I be honest and say I am not as happy as I thought I would be? Honestly, a lot has happened during the time I was gone and I can go on and on complaining in this post about all the misfortunes I’ve had, but I rather stretch that into more posts. :p
One thing for sure, being a graduate feels kinda depressing. I had to constantly remind myself that despite it feeling like an ending it was the beginning of something new. I had this plan of going to New York after graduation and knocking at the doors of Nylon Magazine and beg for them to hire me. Unfortunately, I am still stuck in Texas and there is really nothing here for me other than internships or the wonderful opportunity to work or blog for free for local events — or as they like to call it “exposure.”
I have applied everywhere possible here locally to put my degree to work and make enough money to head to New York, but since I graduated during the holiday season — I have not received any call backs and honestly I doubt I will any time soon. I FEEL STUCK. I’ve had thoughts of maybe going back to school to come up with an excuse on why I have not accomplished anything yet. My mom keeps pressuring me to become a teacher to “pass down my talents and get a good health insurance.” Even if it doesn’t sound like a bad idea its not truly what I want to do. I would like to be a teacher maybe once I want to retire from traveling and meeting new people as a fashion editor.
Even if my plan to New York has been delayed — I have hope that whatever life has planned out for me will work to benefit me in the best way possible. For now, I have to come up with a way to distract myself and stop feeling stuck. If a door in Houston doesn’t open, I might just have to kick it down. 😉